I don't undertand when you tell someone something over and over and they never listen. They think that you don't feel something you do feel and it's making you sick becasue of that feeling and they say things that make it worse than tell everyone you're the bad guy, that you drove the knife in and continue to twist.

Ok let me explain kinda since I don't feel like getting into the whole thing, some of you know already sooo~

I have a friend who is really pissed becasue I sayed I would go out with her and then said no after a con. Let me get this clear, we never went on that date, never made any comment to each other, and she mostly kept away from me.

I told her that in all reality we wouldn't make a good couple and she took this REALLY hard. I mean, she's really sad about this, saying she's crying every night, that she doesn't want to go outside and that I lead her on.

There is more to the story and I can fill you in if you want but I'm at work and I dont' have a lot of time left.

Okie...

I keep telling her that I feel bad and that she needs to talk and that I don't want her to be sad. I've been feeling sick becasue of it, I feel like I ruined her life.

I don't know what to do.

I keep telling her that I feel bad

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1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours

So you would think that items you place in your room would be safe generally. Well like cameras and video cameras. Not in my house apparently. Even when they are screwed onto their stand and covered by their case they are not safe.

Let me explain, I have a small video camera that I bought with my money a while ago. So I could film me and my friends being silly, hurrah!
I keep in on my burro (which is a mess). I keep it there, on a tripod (So it's screwed on) and has it's little fleece cover on it.

So my father comes into my room asking to borrow my camera so he can film some stuff and I'm kinda wary about it (for reasons). I tell him that there is a lot of stuff on it so there isn't a lot of space for him to really film. So what does he say?

"No there isn't"

Excuse me? Yeah there is, me and my friends going though the corn maze and some of my Aussie stuff.

"I took it and put it all on the computer, I was bored".

Oh YOU were BORED so you find it OK to go through MY camera and WATCH all the footage and then PUT IT ON THE COMPUTER AND DELETE IT OFF MY CAMERA!!!???

So I got angry and said that it wasn't freakin' cool and that No, he wasn't allowed to borrow my camera because If I did that to him he would be grinding my bones to make bread or whatever.

So my camera is totally empty. I'm glad I didn't work on my Fem-Aussie thing yet.

He comes back in saying her understood and that he would be angry too if I did that to him. Trying to make everything into a joke and starts talking about the cats to make him look funny.
Yeah, I'm still pissed. I don't hate you but fuck damn am I pissed.

I'm really ticked. Sorry for the rant.

Tsundere (Harsh Outside-Gentle Inside)
[ ] You come off as sort of aloof to other people.
[x] In public, you intentionally refrain from showing much weakness.
[x] You have a secret obsession with something cute.
[ ] You pretend that you hate your crush even though you really love him/her. (Not hate, but I act all I don't care either way I 'crush' )
[x] You blush when people point out your sensitivities.
[ ] You blush when people tell sexual jokes.
Total: 3

Yandere (Gentle Outside-Harsh Inside)
[x] You’re very sweet and kind in public (I always seem to be the only one helping the old ladies with their grocieries).
[ ] When romance becomes a topic of discussion, people say your personality changes drastically.
[x] You know some sort of martial art, swordplay, or otherwise.
[ ] You have a crush who you’d literally kill for.
[x] You have a pet-peeve that makes you snap.
[ ] Schizophrenic?
Total: 3

Meganekko (Girl-with-Glasses Character)
[x] You have glasses.
[x] You can sometimes be clumsy, ditzy, or absent-minded.
[ ] You are always very polite in your speech.
[x] You are fairly intelligent in some field.
[ ] You take discipline seriously.
[x] You have some sort of fetish for something.
Total: 4

Tsukkomi (Angry Guy)
[x] You have a friend who often makes dumb or embarrassing remarks.
[x] You smack/beat up this friend in some way.
[ ] You do your best to maintain a calm facade, only to be thwarted by this friend.
[ ] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yin"
[x] You swear a lot.
[ ] You try to bring out the more serious side of your ridiculous friend.
Total: 3

Boke (Dumb Guy)
[X] You often make silly or embarrassing comments.
[X] You like annoying the heck out of your best friend.
[x] You often get beaten up by your friend in some way, but you take it in good stride.
[ ] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yang”.
[ ] You are normally very laidback and carefree.
[x] You try to bring out the happier side of your angry friend.
Total: 4

Nadeshiko (Perfect Wife)
[ ] You are always, almost overly, polite.
[x] You love traditional Japanese culture.
[ ] You often wear either a kimono, yukata (summer cotton kimono), or apron.
[/] You’re an excellent cook. (I wouldn’t say excellent but I won’t burn the house down!)
[ ] You are hardly ever angry.
[ ] You have really long hair.
Total: 1.5

Sexy Character
[ ] Your bust/package is...formidable.
[ ] You like making sexual innuendos.
[x] You encourage trips to the beach, pool, or onsen (hot springs).
[x] There are some sexual things that you are ignorant to or need explained to you.
[ ] You’re an expert cosplayer.
[ ] You like the taste of alcohol.
Total: 2

Loli/Shota Character
[x] You like sweets or chocolate.
[x] You adore cute things and/or the word “kawaii”. (I’m a good dork and I don’t shout Kawaii all the time, unless the situation TRULY calls for it.
[/] You use Japanese suffixes like “-chan,” “-tan,” “-sempai,” etc... (I used to)
[ ] You add unnecessary suffixes to the ends of your sentences, like “nyo,” “nyu,” “un,” etc...etc~~~
[x] You are considered gullible or naive.
[x] You have a tall/powerful friend who protects you. (BECAUSE ALMOST EVERYONE IS TALLER THAN ME, I love it :3)
Total: 4.5


FUUUUUU- I'm a freaking Loli/shota character god freaking Danmmit I wanted to be bad-ass! See, I can be bad-ass Hi-YA!! *punch*
Guess I should start wearing skirts now huh? *hangs head in shame*

Post a picture in my comments of what you think describes me when you think about what/who I am. Give no written explanation. Just an image.

Like, maybe whatever you think of first when you think of me.
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This should be interesting. That and I'm bored *passes out* I don't know why but when I go to school and come back I feel even dumber.